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me and december 02. 2014
december two and i realize how tiny i am. i understand that beneath my hoodie with the strings pulled tight and the hood suffocating my face and my tongue outstretched and pressed up cold against my...
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me and december 03. 2014
skin crawl and there’s that feeling in my stomach – that heavy feeling that comes right before you begin to cry uncontrollably. you know it’s about to come – even in your grief you can stop and tell...
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me and december 04. 2014
not enough sleep last night so i woke up on my back dehydrated confused for just a second and too far away from pen and paper to record the dream before it slipped out of my head to become just a...
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me and december 05. 2014
i’ve talked before about how one of the hardest parts of the disease to deal with is the loneliness. you never realize how lonely you are until you are surrounded by people you love. to have a mind...
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me and december 06. 2014
afternoon dreams/short medication nightmares (scene one) bare room and then sounds like trumpets and tambourines and i am walking down that old dirt road in carson city – then up in the cemetery...
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me and december 07. 2014
borderline personality disorder m – you’ll find me alone busy sweating erect and i’m below the blankets scribbling out the last words of what we’ve been calling ‘dreams’ or just ‘blog notes’ like i...
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me and december 08. 2014
psychiatrist visit today. he told me he was worried about me this weekend and happy to see me today. he said there is still no word yet from the ECT doctor but that his office would be calling them...
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me and december 10. 2014
today has been horrible. i don’t know if it has been because i have decreased my wellbutrin down to 150 mg or because i have increased the levomilnacipran up to 60 mg or a combination of both but i’ve...
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me and december 14. 2014
it’s somewhat erotic & i thought about it all when stumbling down the sidewalk while dodging high beams and monkey horns & shouts of ‘hey, you tryin’ to die?!’ but those that would be missed...
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me and december 27. 2014
what’s wrong with you, sean? anxiety attack @ 3:00 a.m. on december 26, drive home and barely remember getting home and finally fall asleep around 6 a.m. – fall asleep and sleep all through the day and...
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